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December 2009

2009

This year has honestly been amazing.

Maybe one of my best years so far. And it flew by sooo freaking fast. I remember celebrating New Years at home last year with my family thinking “I can’t believe its already 2009”…

The year started out pretty rough. I often hid a lot of my emotions… When honestly, during January and the months leading to the new year, I think I was the most hurt I had ever been. I’m suprised by how well I handled myself though. I thought I’d never get through it. But I did, pretty smoothly too, I kept my head up. And I am so proud of myself. What I went through is what helped me have such an amazing year. I’m really thankful for the people (you know who you are) and opportunities that were there to support me through it all. Starting with finding my baby Biggie! Omg. I remember my kitty hunting so clearly. Oh and, this has nothing to do with my cat search haha but, I remember the snow. For some reason, thinking back to that time of the year, I automatically remember the snow. Sooo distinctly. It gives me this bittersweet feeling… Anyway, Biggie and the search for him definitely got my mind off of things. I love him so much. Then came February… And the Fil-Am Pageant. Okay really, that experience back then felt like a living hell. Hahaha, sorry. It was so… Sugar coated, and so not me! But I gotta admit that I’m glad I did it. It made me realize a lot of things. I also remember all my art stuff going on this time of the year, like the Silver Key Scholastic Art & Writing Award. The Monte Cristo Exhibit inspired me so much. My art and the pageant, two things I’m really proud and thankful for. Helped me start my year off right. Oh and Sushi Land opened! Yep, totally started my year off right haha. Can you believe that was almost a year ago? And so March and April, these months were alllll about golf hahaha. Awww I kinda miss it. Which reminds me of my long partly bleached hair for some reason. And Mr. Chinn, so funny. Practice after school at the range. Those Special K bars. Sucking at golf matches. Me and Khiren not taking it seriously haha. May… I CUT MY HAIR :’( Waaaah. Oh this month was not good. I remember a lot of drama between me and… Hah. I talked soooo much shit on my blog (which wasn’t really shit though, it was straight up facts) but DILLIGAF? Hahaha. ANYWAYS. I can’t believe I cut my hair so short. School was ending and I really had nothing going on. I think I was bored this time of the year? Hah. Yeah probably. Oh the Danger:Radio concert with my babygirls was pretty awesome. Flee marketing with Dana Khiren and our moms haha and the hanger game!! I also remember Golden Gardens… Which leads to June. When this one guy first laid eyes on me and pretty much hunted me down hahaha which leads to a random, totally unexpected relationship which I think back to and laugh. The whole situation is so funny. We went out for what, 2 days? Started and ended in such interesting ways. Haha good times though. June was when I had my art displayed in Seattle :) AND June is, of course, when Summer officially started. Ohhh, summer. I remember spending the very first week of summer at Danas, aww. That’s when I first met Arnold, aww. Michael Jackson died, aww.. Then came July where I spent a little bit of time with old Oak Harbor buddies. And of courseee, came camping :) Which I think officially started my amazing/cute/absolutely fun summer. Best time of the year. Camping was just the best. I met people who I ended up growing so close to, and I also grew closer to people I’d already known. Which brings us to August, the month of the year, definitely. Every day I was out and about with the people I loved and I was honestly the most genuinely happy I had been in a really long time. And I was single! Yeah, I hadn’t had that in a lonnng time. It was sooo nice you don’t even know. I’ll never forget this time in my life and I mean that… It was just enjoying every minute at that point. Taking turns hanging out at eachothers houses haha, having fun just being in eachothers company, the lonnng goodbyes and hugs, pretty much sleeping over at Jasmins house the whole month, going to bed with something to look forward to every time, waking up to something new every day haha awww :’) We were seriously all so inseperable. Catch phrase, scary movies, webcaming, alcohol haha, the zoo and Beths Cafe and that huge omelet, ketchup and mustard (jr and arnolds cars haha) and every drive in them I swear I can remember, DAY 27 and their amazing songs, juice pong, sleepover with everyone. August was everything. After holding in so much I also got pretty emotional haha I remember feeling guilty and crying over the littlest things. Oh and also the catchup/closure with an “old friend”… *sigh haha… September. I hated September. First of all it ended Summer. Second of all it started school… Haha the new school. I don’t like it. I miss the old school even though it was ugly. September changed everything but oh well, September brought me back to reality. September gave me a lot of time to think. October I was still getting over the fact that summer was really over hahaha. I swear it was like I broke up with the season. I remember my first time getting really drunk and my first time smoking… But it was only hookah. October was just go with the flow. November 19th, I turned 17. I like the number. But I do not feel 17. November was kind of boring but I did get asked by Lil B from The Pack to do his album cover… Which I still haven’t gotten done!!! Ahhh but I will. I’m such a procrastinator. Anyways now we’re ending December. Already really? I love December. It’s like, no matter whats going on in your life, it’s still the holiday season, and everything is still jolly regardless. This month I’m realizing how not only I, but how everyone has grown. I guess I take back what I said, I feel older. I feel more mature. And every year as I get older, seems to go by so much faster. I have learned that, growing up and learning from experiences, makes me learn even more, so it goes on. Everything goes on. I can’t believe next year I will be turning 18. EIGHT freaking TEEN. Weird… I’m always going to remember this year. It was so significant. But I’m so excited to see what’s in store for myself and the new year. So so excited.

Dec 31, 2009
Dec 29, 2009
Dec 27, 2009

Dec 27, 2009
Dec 26, 20091 note
#personal
“Maybe true love is a decision. You know, a decision to take a chance with somebody. To give to somebody. Without worrying wether theyll give anything back. Or if they’re gonna hurt you, or if they really are the one. Maybe love isnt something that happens to you. Maybe its something you have to choose.” —RIP Brittany Murphy
Dec 20, 200915 notes
Dec 20, 200969 notes
Formspring Answers

http://www.formspring.com/forms/?754137-Cak4DD02nQ

The answers are on a seperate blog now.

http://shainasformspring.tumblr.com

<3

Dec 20, 20091 note
“I don’t need no temple, I don’t believe in temples. My body is my canvas. Or, you can put it this way. My body is my temple.. And my temple is interesting, pretty, graffitied, and expresses what’s inside. Haha.” —
Dec 19, 2009
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“There’s tons of fish in the water so the waters I will test” —
Dec 17, 2009
Dec 15, 2009429 notes
“Your greatness is measured by your kindness; your education and intellect by your modesty; your ignorance is betrayed by your suspicions and prejudices, and your real caliber is measured by the consideration and tolerance you have for others.” —William J. H. Boetcker (via justbesplendid) (via quote-book)
Dec 15, 2009452 notes
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Dec 13, 2009
Wake Up Exhausted Tegan and Sara

I wake up exhausted it’s not morning
It’s back to sleep to re-dream me
We’re alone and we’re happy
But there you are, angry with me
Are you alright I can stand up straight
Are you alright can you get me off your mind
I hated this city before you came here
So let go and move on
We’re strangers, we’re not friends
I hate this and I hate them
This city’s exhausted and it’s wound up
Soon to be a place that’s just filled up
And I found out that you’re angry
And you’re sorry you ever met me
Are you alright I can stand up straight
Are you alright can you get me off your mind
I am alright I can stand up straight
Are you alright can you get me off your mind

Dec 13, 2009
Dec 12, 2009214 notes
“At the end of the day, when it comes down to it, all we really want is to be close to somebody. So this thing, where we all keep our distance and pretend not to care about each other, is usually a load of bull. So we pick and choose who we want to remain close to, and once we’ve chosen those people, we tend to stick close by. No matter how much we hurt them, the people that are still with you at the end of the day - those are the ones worth keeping. And sure, sometimes close can be too close. But sometimes, that invasion of personal space, it can be exactly what you need.” —Meredith Grey, Grey’s Anatomy (via kari-shma) (via quote-book)
Dec 11, 20091,398 notes
Dec 8, 2009281 notes
HEY!!!!!!!!

v That was Khiren I don’t love her at all

Dec 3, 2009
I love my sister Khiren
Dec 3, 2009

Oh my fucking god. This made me cry. 

http://www.chinasmack.com/pictures/kittens-found-abused-dead-mother-kunming/

So sad and horrible. Didn’t want to reblog the post cause the pictures are too terrible… The people or person who abused the poor things can go to hell.

Dec 3, 2009
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